Angel Alucard

I wanna know what to write down, right now!! I have had a little idea of what I wanted to write, bt now I just got a stupid block... Anyways, last night, I took the time to arrive early at home! I just gone to watch a bit of TV, while I thought about writing down some things (I don't type most of my writings, I hand write them first) and it started some kind of dark opera there, called "Repo!". It reminded me old dark times, my goth times. I friend of mine kept saying she wants to be a goth again. We never really stop being goths, if we're goths from our deepest within! It's something that's part of our roots, part of our deepest side! We need to have something waking it up, from times to times! I am no longer wearing full goth clothes, I keep using some colourful clothes, I use some large pants and my aunt said she prefers to see me in some jeans, instead looking like a ballon, as she said! Well, I want to look like this balloon, as I am way too skinny!...

Things haven't changed the way I wanted them to change... but like I have typed in the title, they haven't changed yet!! I have been delivering some curriculum (resumes, like i've been warned, by an american boy) and I haven't putted my arms down and gave up... but once again, that's yet!! I find myself reading old letters, especially the ones of my beloved  Elizabeth V. , I keep seing the magazines, pages of magazines, words she wrote to me and I keep imagining this wonderful woman in the kiosk, daydreaming of fairies, dragons, of feminine boys. I also imagine her fantasizing on those feminine boys' butts and in many ways to spank and abbuse of them!! I feel tempted to write her, but... there's always a but in any story, but things haven't changed yet!! I am owing lots of letters, I am penniless, due to almost three years of unemployment and things are shit... people are shit!! SHIT, SHIT, SHIT!! First letter I'll have to write (no, not re-wr...